After church yesterday, I spent the better part of the day out of commission by way of a migraine. I have had more of them in the last couple of months than I had in the entire year prior to that. I think it's probably stress, although honestly I don't feel all that stressed. The general opinion of those around me is that I internalize it. Whatever. All I know is, I've been having a lot of migraines and I hate it.
I have learned something about myself, though, over the last couple of months. When I'm lying in bed, trying to get over a migraine, and I start that sort of delirious panic: "What if I have an aneurysm? What if this is the end? What if I'm about to stroke out and I don't know it? WHAT IF THIS IS THE BIG ONE?" ...
When I'm lying there in that state, apparently my top priorities come into focus. Because when I say the prayer to God to please save me from this one and keep me alive, this is what it invariably sounds like: "Lord, please don't take me now. I want so badly to live to enjoy my grandchildren. And I have to know how Lost ends."
So there you have it. I didn't even know it until recently, but apparently my children's babies and Damon and Carlton's baby are pretty much what I'm living for.
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That's hilarious. I haven't watched it in two years, but I remember feeling that way about it.
you dont know me at all--i followed you from Jonah's site... I dont know them either LOL
I just wanted to say that I sooo totally understand about migraines... I have them too. I had a killer today. I feel just like you do when I have one too... "is this an aneurysm?? a big old brain tumor"? nothing that is not deadly should hurt this much. Feel better soon. Brenda
Brenda, I remember you! You've commented before, and I came over to see your blog. I'm so sorry to hear that you have migraines too, and yes, they are truly awful.
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